Becoming. Me…

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Photograph by Visarute Angkatavanich

Searching for me in all the wrong places.

The gorgeous guide, Hannah Marcotti, the inspiringly beautiful Kimberly Wilson, the nourishing Mara Glatzel, the shining millionaire Leonie Dawson, the Art of Simple lady Tsh Oxendreider, the woman who captures beauty, Susannah Conway, the journal amazing Jen of Journal Wild, the man of Zen Habits Leo Babuta, and the straight up powerhouse Danielle Laporte.

Not me.

Inspiration vs. Emulation.

Stepping away from the voices not my own. Holding space for the silent whispers of my heart and soul to reveal themselves.

Metamorphosis: noun trans·fig·u·ra·tion : a change in form or appearance : an exalting, glorifying, or spiritual change

I have been in a creative void these past few weeks. Feeling as if I am staring into a muddled well of hurt and confusion. I have been trying to wait patiently for the water to settle so I can see answers more clearly.

Like a caterpillar turned to goo before becoming a butterfly, I am in the transformation stage. In the gray space of uncertainty and discomfort I am nourishing and tending to myself. Keeping the tender, tiny bloom of a new beginning soon to unfold cherished and hidden.

It is taking longer than I have patience for!

Sigh

In the interim, here are some ideas and things I have been doing to #fill my well with nourishment and inspiration.

  • Connect with yourself. Probably by being quiet.
  • Spend time alone
  • Go on a walk
  • Dance
  • Meditate the way you like
  • Sing with a smile
  • Laugh down to your belly
  • Pray any way
  • Try a new creative endeavor
  • Get a fish. The peaceful glide of one so light.
  • Rest-create a soothing space to have delight-filled dreams.
  • Light a candle and take a few breaths and watch the flame. Primal peace.
  • A new journal. Fresh starts for a new season soon coming.
  • Treat yourself with gentleness and speak words of sweet.
  • Vision & create your own unique self-care routine
  • Daydream, cloud watch, spend time outside,
  • Play in water (a pool, lake, ocean, etc),
  • Be present for a sunrise or sunset

Who or what is inspiring you? go & get some!

What can you do more of that makes you really alive & happy?

What can bring more playfulness, fun & celebration in your life?

What energy do you want to feel from your day?

What would you like your day to look like?

You are made of dreams, my inspire.

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Clean Slate

clean slate

Let it be

this lust for life, all our

pride and joy.

 

Explore the power of your

black & white

and the ever-softness and

sensuality of grey.

Find your balance,

your life of paradox and grit of in-between.

Unleash the magic as beauty is amplified

and

explore your bit of serene.

This is the moment…

Where is your wild devotion?

What is your own quiet revolution?

Always by your side, Darling.

 

 

 

The Color of My Passion

piano keys of color

Dancing in deep peacock blue & opening to violet dreams

with whispers of palest, powdery blue and blushing, cotton candy pink.

The desire of you.

I write in black and white,

take pictures in that scheme too

because I think

the feelings are conveyed with greater depth & clarity,

in shadow and shades of gray.

But dreams,

dreams are a chaos of color

vibrant

blinding.

The rich hues leave behind

residue on my eyelids

and color my days

splendid.

What makes your face light up?

Follow your evocative truth, ma biche.

In my Becoming I am…

blue flower in asphalt

Her in this Here

unapologetic

more myself

a curious dark diamond

a blue bird with raven wings

such a pretty little thing

with strong roots and spread wings

the simple goodness of giggles bubbling

a swirl of colors and shadow play

busted and whole

smooth and jagged

a perfect piece of broken soul

a woman caked in mud rising as wild

the one I want

tasting my magnificence

and am intoxicated with my scent

 

What are your ingredients today?

Darling, keep dreaming.

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I Seek

key in a door

to leave ordinary behind for a time,

peer behind the veil

where upheaval & chaos prevail

(the state of my soul, a place I know well)

this space, so refreshing

where my mind unravels the dressings

which have been

keeping me wrapped, mummified and quiet

what if,

I listened to and chose to be

just

me?

 

I am turned on when…

live lusciously, my darling

 

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Love Unfolding. Us. {#SEE}

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Perhaps you have noticed, as I have,

the ache of an ever-expanding heart,

feeling almost too big for a torso.

It has grown with use

bigger, stronger, brighter

Your heart needs & deserves a bit of tenderness

and gentle holding

by you.

Unfold the layers of your heart and soul

Seek & find the unshakable,

unbreakable

part of your core.

Perhaps, the peeling back will hurt yet,

the smoothing back the folds feel like a soft dream.

Dance in the shadow of the unknowing

and waltz in the light of truth showing.

Twirling in gray.

Scripting in ink.

Write

Writhe

Thrive

What are you ready to let go of?

What story do you want to live 

(& write)?

What is one thing you adore effortlessly?

 

Joining in?

Being Gray & Conflict