This Heavy Sadness

hourglass

I cried and watched heat lightning flash

a strobe light in the sky, falling rain as my soundtrack to

a heart heavy with envy and reality.

Longing to be

someone other

Than

Me.

A stark and cutting realization:
My hurt stems and is rooted down in feeling so very alone

and the knowing

there is no one to rescue me, no one  to give me approval, no one to write my poem.

It’s up to me.

This realization has only come from losing, in one way or another, those who I thought might be up for the tasks.

It was never their job and yet I hoped, wished, wanted and thought

they could do it.

So I waited,

and poured into them,

and waited

and tried to love them the best way I knew how,

and waited

and lost parts of myself trying to be what I thought was worthy of their affections and deserving of their time.

There is no me being victim

I chose to wait

and now

The wait is over.

I do not know how or if, this will change my life.

I think it will shift intentions and focus to me.

Empowering and frightening. 

As all the fabulous things in life are.

You Know Who you Are

Better to see the video

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First Look

First Look

Our sacred beginnings, a cup and a poem.

Your role of beautiful brilliance

especially when it is ordinary

You are

amazing, inspiring, incredible

You are

an eternal exhale

and you inhale renewal & new beginnings.

So full of flavor and the unique taste of you.

Make today BLOOM.

Set your soul free with serenity at sunrise

because

your story starts here…

How do you greet the day?

Your brilliance is showing, my love.

 

 

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Clean Slate

clean slate

Let it be

this lust for life, all our

pride and joy.

 

Explore the power of your

black & white

and the ever-softness and

sensuality of grey.

Find your balance,

your life of paradox and grit of in-between.

Unleash the magic as beauty is amplified

and

explore your bit of serene.

This is the moment…

Where is your wild devotion?

What is your own quiet revolution?

Always by your side, Darling.

 

 

 

Home Sanctuary

plate of flowers on linen

Retreat Rest Restore

The magic of home

it is a perfect mix of beauty & comfort,

rich, decadent & chocolaty,

velvet softness and brick & stone.

Our enchantment is always the goal

seek and find the

PLEASURE.

The best setting is the one that allows the extraordinary to emerge,

the meaningful moments to converge

into a stunning tapestry of your reality & truth.

Design your surroundings to inspire confidence and relax into

and set your intention

to enjoy the finer, simple things.

And

GATHER

serving up yourself

over and over.

Spilling out

JOY.

Where do you dwell with the Divine?

Sweetheart, home is you.

Daily Acts of Anarchy

Lighter Flick

The truth:

You are enough

Just as you are.

 

The not-enoughness is a lie.

You, as the real, truth-bearing honesty-telling you is all any of us need,

you being you

as a daily act of anarchy.

You are worth seeing, sharing, knowing.

Immerse us in your unique Divinity.

And

Thank you,

Your raw rebellion

is just what we need.

What do you know to be true right now?
Where do you feel truth?

Beloved One, you are amazing. Just as you are.

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The Color of My Passion

piano keys of color

Dancing in deep peacock blue & opening to violet dreams

with whispers of palest, powdery blue and blushing, cotton candy pink.

The desire of you.

I write in black and white,

take pictures in that scheme too

because I think

the feelings are conveyed with greater depth & clarity,

in shadow and shades of gray.

But dreams,

dreams are a chaos of color

vibrant

blinding.

The rich hues leave behind

residue on my eyelids

and color my days

splendid.

What makes your face light up?

Follow your evocative truth, ma biche.